trusting hearts.

It is incredible.
It is incredible to have someone in your life that you trust 100%, that you know without a doubt, will not hurt you.


After what feels like an eternity of relationships with dishonest people, not even just romantically, but also in friendships, and family relationships, it feels so good to know that the one I am with, the one I will spend my life with, is for real. A good, honest, hard working man that loves not only me, but my sons as well.


It still amazes me how when I look into Scott's eyes, there's no doubts there. I've never once had that before. To know that he has given me his heart, and that he holds mine..and it's SAFE..is a great, great thing.
Jayden had me thinking, and it got me so excited. Jayden asked, "Mom, will it be this Christmas coming up or next Christmas that we get to have with Scott?" That lead me to thinking about how holidays are big for me. I know that they are for most people. It made me think about how this is my last Christmas in New York, and I'm not sad! I would be any other time, but to go to Texas is for us...Not for me, not for Scott, not for Jayden, it's for us. All three of us. As a family. In 2009, we will have our first Halloween out trick or treating with Jayden. We will have our first Thanksgiving, digging into all that food together. And our first Christmas, putting up the tree, decorating the apartment, making Christmas cookies...Scott and I get to be "Santa"...and we get to watch Jayden wake up Christmas morning together. The next 13 months will fly by, and then we'll be together permanently. No more having to plan plane trips to be in eachothers arms again. It's been fun taking trips, and planning and the anticipation that leads up to each visit, life is good...and we've made it SO far, much farther than many do in our situation, and life will be even better come next year.


Scott tells me, "we're concrete." And we are. It's wonderful.


In the past, it's always been "well, if we're together in a couple years, then I'd like to do this." With Scott, it's "In a couple years, we will do this."

AHH! It's so nice :) "Mine wuvs him."

On a different note...
My mom got her 3 kittens today.
I introduce to you...

Duncan, Dooley and Daizie.

Duncan and Dooley are on the top...and Daizie is on the bottom.