I need to get back in touch with me, as a woman.
I am so used to the me as a mom...which is the greatest part of me that there is.
But I need to remember the other parts of me.
The part of me that loves to laugh with her girlfriends.
The part of me that loves to dance.
The part of me that loves to read.
Yes, those are all things that I can do as "Mommy."
I don't want to be that irresponsible mom that you see out clubbing.
I am not that kind of girl anyways.
I don't enjoy the club scene.
I just don't want to forget who I am when I am caught up in the days chores.
I don't want to forget who I am in relationships...
And I really don't want to forget what I deserve.
Whether it be in my romantic relationship with Scott,
or in my friendships.
I want to get back to that place where I stood my ground
and felt confident in my choices...
Right now, I'm not feeling that way.
Instead, I'm feeling bullied into being how everybody else wants.
That's not me.
I am really wanting to find a way to turn my grief into something productive.
Something that will help not only myself, but others.
Anything to help.
I want to get back to my basics...the basics of myself.
The very little things that make me happiest, and I want to just go with it.
I'm going to just go with it.
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